Staples and Stitches. Strong to Weak.

Anything can change within a blink of an eye. ok, well maybe not that fast. But situations, relationships, and opportunities can all fly by so fast; that, at times, the quick change can knock you off your feet. This past week was hitting me with changes and problems that pushed me right to the ground.

Exhibit A:

I work as a lifeguard. I also work at a café. My schedule for the café was set before my schedule for lifeguarding. This past saturday no one was available to lifeguard in the morning. I wasn't scheduled to work at the café until 3 so I told my lifeguarding schedule manager that I could open but I could not stay the whole 4 hour shift. She said that was fine and that she'll have someone come in early. Well when it came time for me to leave for the café, on saturday, I made sure my co-worker had the pool under-control and when I got the okay, I left. Well within the 15-20 my co-worker was alone at the pool (waiting for someone to come in early to cover the rest of my shift) a boy jumped on a little girl. The boy had to get stitches on his chin and the girl had to get staples on her head. Just within the little time my co-worker was alone, caos happened. The sunny day of fun turned into a blood mess of staples and stitches. It only took 20 minutes for something completely wrong to happen. Just a longer glance in the wrong direction to not prevent a problem. 20 minutes and the cool pool held blood and two people injured. 

Exhibit B: 

I have a boyfriend. He is very handsome and funny. kind. tall. athletic. friendly. (a huge list to be continued). We had a problem that escalated to numerous problems/conflicts. The conflicts made me question what we had. what we were. It surprises me how quickly our strong bond has weakened. My thoughts and feelings are so unorganized. If you would have asked me about how my relationship with him was a week ago, I would have told you it was better than ever. That he was the man of my dreams. I am not saying that he his not the man of my dreams now. He is an amazing young man. And he would be good to any woman he is with. I just question how well we mesh. How well we really work well together. 

Anything can come to a quick change. The winds are always changing. Our paths are always swerving. But I know from experience, that we learn from our past. We learn from our situations, relationships, and opportunities that fly by us. 

As a lifeguard. I know now, never to leave a pool without two lifeguards on duty. and as a girlfriend. My next step is still unclear. But I know that whatever step comes next I will carry more knowledge on with me. I learn. I grow. and I carry on. We all carry on. Even with the things that come quickly and knock us off our feet. 

So go with the wind. When it changes directions, go with it. learn from it. Stay strong. 

love. 

Jessica.