Pushing Forward

These past couple of days I have been moping around. Just feeling sorry for myself. I dread every day going to work. And I had convinced myself that since Im working 40ish hours a week that I would not have a "summer".I want a summer full of friends, the beach, and reading. Since my dream of summer has vanished because of work I have been dragging my feet. I have found no motivation to do anything. Now I am sick of complaining. Sick of waiting for my real summer to start. Sick of having no motivation. I know that this is the way it is suppose to be right now.  I am suppose to be working 40 plus hours a week. Although I have a job that I can not stand, it will benefit me in the future. This job is helping me pay for my huge expenses. (aka college) Because of this job, I have been touched by various lives. Because of this job, I have money. Because of this job I have built new skills. Because of this job, I have added more onto my résumé.
So from this point on, I will keep my head up. I may not be excited to go to work, but I will not drag my feet or complain. I will continue using my feet to push myself further on this journey of life. No matter what troubles, struggles or unwanted jobs that I come across, I will continue to push forward. And pushing forward will be a lot easier with a happy heart than trying to push forward with a heavy heart.

I LOVE music! As I was listening to the radio on the way home from work I heard this song and it helped me lighten my mood. check it out! Andy Grammer is great! (This is only my opinion but---the music video doesn't give the lyrics justice so close your eyes and just listen to the words).

Community

I am going to be an R.A. (Resident's Assistant) this coming school year. One HUGE concept that we emphasize is "community". I already see my college campus as a good community, but as an R.A. our job is to build a community within our community. We are to create a home and a place where the student can feel happy, safe and welcomed. Within two days, I have found where my "community building" inspiration is. Grand Rapids. In Grand Rapids there are so many areas that make me happy; areas that feel like I'm home and welcomed. One area happens every Tuesday night. Downtown Grand Rapids holds a great evening of swing dancing. It's not only a time to listen to great music and crank out those awesome dances moves; it is a time that brings various people of Grand Rapids together, as a community. I love watching all the people come together in search for a common interest. A wave of happiness comes to me every time I attend one of these nights. A true sense of community.

Grand Rapids is an inspiration in building a community. In the same sense, community can also bring inspiration. Communities, environments, cities, can inspire us. So whether that be your backyard, the local food kitchen, the ocean or New York city, grasp that source of inspiration; that source of happiness, sense of home, safety and welcomeness. Let your community inspire you to become the person you want to be. 

"Concrete jungle where dreams are made of, 

There's nothing you can't do, 

Now you're in New York

These streets will make you feel brand new, 

the lights will inspire you, 

Let's hear it for New York"

Empire State Of Mind Lyrics by Jay-Z 

Eva. Swing dancing. 

Danielle. Kajal. Natasha

Sarah. Danielle.

Ups and Downs

Today, I rode the emotional roller coaster. Have you ever ridden it before? Constant change of emotions and moods. At one time of the day you feel like you're on top of the world and the next minute you want to crawl in a hole and never come out.

Well, one point of my day I was frustrated. Then I was mad. Then sad. Then hopeful. Then content. Then happy. Then beyond-words happy. Now I am, once again, content; content about the mood changes. I had low points in my day and high points in my day. I overcame the low points and was able to see past them. I was able to see that the issues I blew up were only grains of sand. I was paying too much attention to the flaws I wanted to correct, instead of paying attention to the worth of what I already have. As the day began I was a perfectionist. I was frustrated with what I didn't have and what I needed to be "perfected"; which made me mad. But as the day continued I became more aware of the "perfection" I already had. A job. Great friends and family. Health. Etc. My thoughts and priorities have been straightened due to my mood changes. Due to the ride on the emotional roller coaster. 

So for the ones who ever take a ride on the emotional roller coaster ---Try not to blow up about the little things. Prioritize. Deal with the things that are most important and be thankful for the important things you already have. I am a true believer in "everything happens for a reason". Your day will turn out exactly the way it is suppose to. 

The Start

I believe everyday has a special moment. A moment that is meaningful. Purposeful. Although I believe in these special moments, I do not take the time to see these occurrences. I want my eyes to be opened to the defining moments in my everyday life. My plan is to be more observant with life. I want to highlight the meaningful events that would normally happen without value. Some moments in my life are like dusty antiques. I pay no attention to them because I do not see any worth. They do not sparkle or carry a sign that shows importance. But now,  I want to un-dust and polish those moments so I, and you, can see it's worth. To see moments sparkle. So I hope through this blog I am able to let those unseen, dusty, moments of my everyday life sparkle and SHINE.